"As a boy, I experienced such deep rejection from my father and other masculine men in my life. Somewhere along the journey, an oral sex fantasy took away the pain of rejection, gave me the feeling of acceptance and belonging, yet also distracted me from reality—real healing, real acceptance, real inclusion. Learning to disentangle the sexual fantasies from the real feelings I was wrestling with was a huge key towards freedom from porn. It also helped me to focus on true healthy friendships with men in my life...I feel more myself. I feel more in control. I feel like porn has lost some of its power. It still comes up powerfully at times, but not as dominantly as before. I feel more at peace, more accepting of who I am, my story, what I struggle with. Less ashamed."

—Hudson